Nostalgia

Ohhh nostalgia. 

I remember this exact moment and exactly what David whispered into my ears. Erika said for David to say some sweet nothings in my ear and David ever so seriously whispered: " Sweet nothings" He's always had this charm that makes me laugh from deep within. It really seems like just yesterday that I was anxious to get off of work to drive up to Branson to visit David. Sweaty palms as I gripped the steering wheel, windows down, music playing yet my mind was racing.  We'd been talking loads on the phone and feelings; no matter how much I tried to fight it, had turned from like to love. I kept telling myself to play it cool and really just take things slow. Then what happens? I get out of the car and we pretty much just straight away said the words we'd been wanting to say but knew that we didn't want to say it first time on the phone. I love you. It was such a kind of High School way we went about it but I wouldn't change it for the world. 

I can't believe that the most unthinkable happened and that almost three years later I am not only still with him, he's my husband. I live in England and we are ever so happy. So cliche and cheesy I know but if you have ever been in as dark as a place as I was before I met David you would not even think that something such as just simple happiness would ever be apart of your life. It's not something I really feel comfortable talking about or going into detail but I can definitely say he was my knight in shining armour. When I least expected it he swept me off my feet.  

I really have been feeling nostalgic lately. Missing wedding planning and all those stages before the big day. Do any other brides feel this way? Is this normal? I mean I do know that any bride must want to go back to their big day and relive it. I just want to be in a room with everyone I love again. Dancing the night away and  just being on cloud nine. 

Now it seems time is going by faster and it doesn't seem to be slowing down anytime soon. I feel like someone has pushed the fast forward button on life. I really want things to just slow down and be able to just take everything in a bit more. Next thing you know we are going to be 55 talking trying to remember the names of old friends we once knew, laughing about funny memories and telling tales of nights out and travels.  

I wish I could remember everything like I remember certain moments. It's unusual how certain things just stick with your mind and others as hard as you try to remember seem to slip into a black hole lost forever. 

How unusual when a scent or sound can instantly take you back to a specific time in life and it's almost as real as present day. It's sometimes the smallest things as well. I heard a Dean Martin song a few months back and I couldn't pinpoint exactly where I remembered the song and then I heard it again and it literally clicked. I could see my mom singing the song to me as I was lay in my canopy bed, blankie in one hand and thumb in my mouth. 

I also want to know does anyone else ever have dreams/nightmares that they've had since they were children? The mind really amazes me and I could probably go on and on about the philosophy and psychology of it all and how my mind is so intrigued by just really everything from the mind to how airplanes actually fly?

Am I the only one as well that is kind of sad that we won't ever be children again? Like I really miss childhood. I miss playing kickball and then dreading when the night grew darker because dark meant home time. I can't imagine how it must feel to be a parent and watch as your child gets older. I really cannot wait for that time in our life but definitely have some living to do before we are ready for that. I admire parents. 

Do you ever get nostalgia?