Thankful.

Will you be my wife? I remember those words coming from my darling husband on that fine February night two years ago. The funny crazy thing is David and I actually only spent a total of 3 weeks together when we started dating before he left to go back to England. I remember thinking I may never see this man again. Then we saw each other for a weekend in New York to celebrate his mother's birthday and I met his mother Pam , his brother Paul and his now wife Gemma. David then came back for two weeks in November and then I went to England for three weeks at Christmas. So add that all together we'd basically only spent 8-10 weeks together before this 4,000 relationship went from dating to engagement. Then I even decided to leave everything I knew just to follow my heart to England. I was done with missing David. I was done with getting used to having someone to cuddle with to only have to say goodbye two weeks later. Mostly I just wanted our lives to start together. Anything that I was doing I wanted David to be apart of it. I didn't want him to miss out on anything nor did I want to miss anything. That's how I just knew. Just like I know now that if I have exciting news, he's the first person I run to. If I've had a bad day it still surprises me how just seeing him makes me feel better inside. We could have waited until we were in our late thirties or whatever to get married, but I've said it and I'll say it again. When you know, you know. Why wait. Granted, I understand that statement can also be taken, when you know, why rush things. In our instance, we didn't want to wait. 

Now as we are finding ourselves in life, I am just so grateful that David and I found each other. I still struggle constantly as I'm sure a lot of twenty somethings are to figure out who they are and what it is in life that is meant for them. I get anxiety quite often about not knowing who I am, or where I belong. Then, I take a moment and realise; I am in such an early stage of life. There are so many years to come to figure out things. The twenties are for figuring out yourself, all the other stuff comes later. Whenever I do feel a bit blue or down, I always look to my side and just smile that no matter where life is taking me; I know David is by my side. He drives me to be the person I want to be. He knows me better than I know myself sometimes. He picks me up when I'm down and I hope I do the same for him. There are a lot of changes coming up in our life and I am just so extremely thankful that we are taking on life together. 

It just blows my mind how love finds you in the strangest places. I once thought that I would never believe in love again. It just didn't seem real, my parents and most my friends parent's were divorced. Most of the relationships I had been in before were not very healthy. I guess that's what they say though it wasn't meant to be; each person we meet in life, each relationship, each heartache, each experience is a learning lesson. Everything I've been through has made me able to appreciate the love that David has to give to me. 

I guess I just wanted to say a big thank you to my husband for always being there and really just putting up with me. I am madly in love with him and I don't thank him enough.